Whatever will be, will be.

It's been a great week.

I don't mean in terms of accomplishment or productivity. I was lazy as hell. I had the week off from work, so Ashley and I spent our time together and generally did nothing. I enjoyed that time very much.

This marks a shift in my priorities. Probably not a good shift by my own standards, but it has it's merits. For one, I wasn't pacing around like a manic baboon thinking about the time I was wasting and what I could be accomplishing. I was generally present and relaxed, next to my girlfriend on the couch for hours at a time.

I repeated one thing to myself over and over. If I want to do it, I will do it. A pretty reasonable approach to a week off, no? But I was thinking a little more long term. If I'm really to be a comedy writer, then I will be itching to follow that path sooner or later. I will be imbued with the NEED to create comedy. That did eventually happen, but after nearly five days. Not exactly a record.

It's a shift. College was a hectic time. It's built that way. You barely have time between priorities, everyone drinks like the grand canyon is filling up with blood, and everything I wrote had some sort of purpose. Now, in this limbo state of my early 20's, the world around me is less pressing, and I can just sort of relax for a second.

In reality, that's true. There is no rush. There's no reason to force myself too hard in any direction if I'm not interested in doing it. That sounds like that laziest thing I could say, but I need to say it so I don't jump off a bridge. I think I'm on the right track. A couple weeks ago, when I attempted to have a "Perfect Week", I was going crazy from unemployment and wanted some sort of job. I gave myself the job and teetered off the path. Now, I have other plans.

Before I talk about the future, I need to address the point of sharing. Sharing your plans and goals with everyone on the internet. I've read some articles that say, in a nutshell, it doesn't work. There's no extra motivation to accomplish something after you write a Facebook post about it. In fact, the same reward centers in your brain that fire off after a big accomplishment will activate when you simply tell someone about your plans. It's just a free win. Then, after we lose sight of the goal or move on to something else, our minds will make us feel better about it. Our brain comes up with excuses, little pivots and turns in our thinking that trick our conscious into believing we didn't back peddle.

So I'm hesitant to present my plans, but I'll keep them away from accomplishment and more into concrete agendas. First off, I have a job. I've had it for about a month, and recently my boss has agreed to essentially give me a promotion. Without the title, I would have more responsibilities and a higher paycheck. That's worth sharing, I think.

Also, as of yesterday, I am officially an enrolled student in the Upright Citizens Brigade in NYC. I will be taking a sketch writing course starting next Tuesday and I could not be more excited.

Along with that development, I've found a really cool group of people doing comedy in Suffern, NY called Rhino Comedy. I tried out their drop in improv class on Sunday and thoroughly enjoyed it, so I definitely see myself going there more in the future.

As with everything else that's going on, well, it's for another time. My priorities shift and change, but from now on I will not dictate them with my words. After all, I've been wrong before.