Progression Reflection

Last night I went to Walmart at 1:30 AM to buy hangers. It took me three tries to get the right ones.

I was in a rare mood of productivity and energy. I don't know how I got inspired, probably just from looking at my room and seeing how disgusting it was, but I stayed focus nearly the whole time and kept myself busy until I was satisfied. Then, this morning, I was tired and went to bed.

Yesterday started out with a big breakfast with my mom. Maybe that's why I had a good day. I never usually eat a high-calorie breakfast like that so maybe I'm just not used to the energy it gives me. I should probably try to have good breakfasts like that more often.

I also spent a lot of the day lounging around or sitting. I napped at 2 while watching football. Maybe if I make sure to spend some time relaxing then I can have better moments of energy that I use to be productive. Maybe the balance is the most important thing.

Then, at 4, I started my 5 hour shift at the labs desk. That sounds worse than it is, because I got to eat in the middle of it and it really doesn't involve any hard work at all. I'm still debating whether or not I should try and drop the shift in order to travel more for Melee. Ultimately, I think keeping the shift is a better move. It's a great opportunity to get my work done and get paid for it. I'm forcing myself to go to the library. Also, dropping the shift would lead to me getting ~500 less dollars by the end of the semester. Seems like an easy decision to me.

During the shift I had Yellow Deli, which was fantastic. Deli pesto, no mustard no onions. It made my day by how delicious it was. I think I'll be allowed to break up my shift with a meal, and that makes all the difference. I just need to rely on other people to get that meal for me. Maybe having healthy dinners that aren't too heavy is good for my productivity.

But maybe it was just the coffee that kept me up and drove me to Walmart at 1 AM. I drank a full medium, and we all know how much that can fuck someone up if drank at 7 o'clock. Caffeine is a beautiful thing, so maybe I should dive right into addiction and try to drink coffee as much as possible.

I think, though, it was the blog and TV writing that put me into that mindset. I know that there is zero downside to writing in this blog or a journal, but I don't do it enough. It should really be an every day thing in an attempt to loosen up my thoughts and get the blood flowing. Last night I made great progress on my Rick and Morty spec as well as finishing up a paper that is due today. When I got home, after an awesome movie night with the roommates watching Captain America, I guess I just kept my momentum going and cleaned about 80% of my room. I then worked out and did my 20 minutes of melee practice before going to bed. Ashley was giving me weird looks the entire time.

All in all, it was a good day. Now is another time of reflection, where I tell myself what I need to do and how I should be proud of myself and all that nonsense. I think just appreciating that I'm capable of days like that is enough. I have a confidence that at any point I can make it a great day by writing, exercising, practicing smash, and taking care of obligations.

Like my mom always says, the more you need to do the more you do. I could easily crumble under the pressure of my responsibilities, all it would take is 2 days of inaction and I would fall so far behind that I would start crying. But after this weekend, after performing in front of the largest audience of my life and making people laugh, after spending time with my friends and girlfriend, after getting $160 worth of food from Walmart, and being days away from a big ol' paycheck, things are looking so good that it's ridiculous. Now all I need to do is apply for a scholarship...

If I don't check in tomorrow then I haven't learned a damn thing.