Okay, Ill admit it. I took some about 3 hours ago. I have a lot of stuff to catch up on, as well as two tests to study for, so I'm going to excuse myself of any guilt and ask anyone reading this to do the same. Sorry Dad/Mom if you're reading this. Just know that I'm very responsible and take care of myself well.
Speaking of study drugs, yesterday I was reading a little bit about a new drug called modafinil that's gaining some traction online. It is supposed to give similar effects to adderall and vivanse, with less chance of addiction. It's apparently not an amphetamine, which is very appealing. The fact that most study drugs are amphetamines are the number 1 reason why I'm afraid of them. They are incredibly potent and abused all over the country! Now that there's an alternate available, with plenty of rave reviews online from drug forums and other sources, I'm thinking about it. If the biggest reason as to why I shouldn't give it a shot is that I'm cheating, or a dogmatic clinging to the notion that "Drugs are bad," then I'll do it. I'm definitely going to think about it more, though. This whole buying online with sketchy mc-sketchpants websites is enough to make me hesitate.
This weekend was a hella good time. I'll say it now, even though I didn't tell my Mother yet, I got a speeding ticket. It's my second ticket, but I still have no points on my license (yet) because I did a program with the first ticket to make sure it didn't add points. Apparently this time the cop will help me out to make sure the same thing happens, for the price of a more expensive ticket. God damnit.
It's interesting though, and kind of nice, to have the worst thing in my life be a speeding ticket. I'm not stressed about my classes, I'm not behind on any work, my relationship is going great, and I'm healthy. I have a good job and money coming in, so it's not going to kill me to have to pay an expensive ticket. It definitely still sucks, and will probably lead to me not speeding in the future (hopefully), but I'm not taking it too badly. If I were a religious man I would say this was God's way of testing how happy I am, and my patience with his... master plan.. I guess. I don't know, all I know is that I'm chillin.
I've also been doubling down on figuring out what the hell I want to do when I get out of college. I think right now I want to take a couple of months off to see how I can fare with comedy/smash as a lifestyle. It will take some convincing to my parents to be okay with me literally being jobless for two months, but I think that if I work really hard I can possibly make some money doing what I love. Maybe I will take one month to just write, perform, practice, and compete, and see how that goes for me. Maybe month 2 Ill take a part time job and keep doing what I'm doing, then month 3 I'll start looking for a career if I don't make too much progress. It just seems so appealing to me to be able to spend every hour of the day working towards my goals, instead of working for some other company just to make money.
But the thing is, I have so many goals right now that I don't know the best place to start. I think my biggest goal is to get a job as a comedy writer and go from there. If I keep on writing, networking, and performing then I can definitely do it.
If I get a job as a writer, then I think the next step would be to start streaming. I love video games, I love performing, and I love improv, so I think having a stream would be a great way to incorporate that into a tangible, marketable product. I would be a hella good streamer.
But this is all thinking of the future, and I have a hell of a long way to go. First step is to get my degree, which is the next thing I'm going to work on with writing my Screenplay and making a study guide for one of my classes. I'm ready to get my life started, so let's see if I can work hard while doing everything else that I'm doing.
That was a pretty hard rant to follow, and mostly a freewrite, but that's the point of this blog anyway. It always feels good to come back to this after a weekend of not writing. That's a great realization for me.
Till next time.
No comments:
Post a Comment