Free write before big boy work

I feel ready to take on this day.

For the first time in what seems like forever I'm sitting down with a to - do list and determination. I've been putting things off, and now it's time to make it work or break under the pressure. I've broke under the pressure before, and it freakin hurts. I've also reached peaks (relative peaks I should say) and felt that accomplishement before, and that is a great feeling. It also turns into momentum that makes the next week or two that much more rewarding. I say this all the time, momentum is everything.

I'm imagining a roller coaster. In order for the car to make the next peak, it needs to have time to fall down. That steep fall is what propels you into the next rising section. I feel that way with how I act, how I keep productive, how I keep momentum. Nothing kicks your ass better than falling way down. Bombing onstage inspires weeks of work, I only clean your car when it's dirtiest.

Maybe theirs another way besides "It's always darkest before the dawn." A way to keep the inclines and declines more moderate. Extremes are almost never a good thing, so why try to live within two extremes? That's a tough way to live.

Also, if you have a shit load of momentum, it almost has to lead to a crash. I imagine a drug addiction to be more of a fun roller coaster to ride, if these metaphorical roller coasters were options at a real theme park. It is definitely the one that makes the news for killing too many people, though.

Coffee is the successful, critically acclaimed roller coaster. The ones that aren't too edgy but are definitely sticking around for a while. Some people go on every single day.

Alcohol is definitely the spinning shit. My version was the gravitron, it spun you in circles until you could feasibly stand horizontal on the walls. Alcohol is wild.

I don'e care to finish this structured comedic post right now. I just need to keep writing. Sometimes this just turns into a freewrite, and honestly that happens most of the time.

I'm running low on the page, and I need to get started on my work right away. Right now it's just a race to get as much material on the page as possible so I can get started on my first responsibility, which is honestly the movie, so I don't know why I'm so hesitant to do it. Writing is really fucking hard, and Mark Cohen keeps reminding us of that fact. FUCKKKKK

Okay that worked somewhat. Freewriting is really important, so I gotta somehow bring it back to my script. Maybe I should look at my journal that I had. Okay, wait, I can just write about it on thiis post. I need to remember that this isn't meant to be read anytime soon and that it has a purpose other than brand building or publicity. Damn, okay, into it now.



Words I learned are two words: Roller coaster.