The desire to procrastinate is unreal.

Unreal! So much of my effort is going towards not opening up another tab and dicking around for 30 minutes. Oh bother.

Work ethic is important, obviously. That's pretty much all I think about now, how do I work better. What do I need to do to be the best at what I'm doing. How do I get my shit together. What do I focus on, how do I spent my time effectively. I'm running out of time, but I'm not, but I am. It's crazy. Shit is crazy.

I am doing better than I thought, and this week is less crazy than I think it is. I don't have problems with money, but I kinda do. I don't have too much to write, but I have a million projects I want to get started on. I'm paid on dues, so that's a start. I don't really have my life organized, but I did spend a bunch of time cleaning and doing laundry yesterday so It wasn't a waste. I also got back on that melee grind, which continues today. I wrote my portion of today's work for Terps. I need to check on what I need for tomorrows argumentation class as well. I'm doing okay. I still failed a test before break, and I'm waiting to see just how bad it was. It's going to be pretty bad, that's for sure.

But in the grand scheme of things I can't be too upset. I have a good grasp on what my life might look like after college. I know what I want to spend my time doing. I have hobbies that are fulfilling. I have objects I can save money towards buying. I have an amazing girlfriend. I have a ton of connections and friends. I'm starting to regain some confidence.

And now I have to finish this post, and I forced myself to start it. For whatever reason, I hate writing. I don't want to start writing. I want to do literally anything else before sitting down and starting this blog. At the same time, I know how important it is. Freewriting is everything. Freewriting will open me up for good.

I have my other blog, too, that I havn't wrote in in a long time. What is the next Idea that I have? Maybe I can start writing about that Tacos thing. That would actually be pretty fun.

See you on the other side!